Pain stinks

Life has many roads we can travel, some are easy, some are not. If we choose the wrong path our travels can be rough. I do not know the correct path to be on sometimes but I am motivated to finish the course. If as a christian I am discouraged by the travels of life, what is my alternative?

In the past nine months there have been many potholes in this path of life I am traveling, potholes that force me to stumble. In a marriage we must realize that when we travel as a family, we are never alone! My wife has been the force behind me and has supported me even when I am wrong. I am blessed! The problem is that at this junction of my life I am becoming scared, scared I have failed at being who I am called to be. I know that the devil has put these thoughts in my mind to take my focus off  God, but I am scared.

I am scared at failure in ministry. I am scared at faling in my marriage, not that I would do anything wrong, but that the pressure I have on my wife would hurt her. I am scared that when I get to heaven Jesus ask me why I missed out on an area of service and I have no answer. I am scared that I am loosing focus.

I am aware that this is a weary heart that just needs to vent and open up, so I say thank you for listening! I am aware that as I travle this path I am on God is in control!

Matthew writes in chapter 7:13-14
  “Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many.  14 For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few. (ESV) This is the path I choose, the narrow gate, and I know that the road is rough!

peace out