I just want to tell you sometimes it hurts to be honest. I am struggling with a bunch of things that has moved my focus from God. I am in a whirll wind and I need to find the way out. Who ever thought that being a Pastor was a cake job needs there head looked at. I am in a state of mind bending, soul searching and I am praying that my wants sease and Gods will come into my life. I pray that the battle inside me stop and that my desire will be the place God has for me. Why is it that when we are in a place of service all the things of the world try to block our sight of the Father? I am wanting the power of God to be the factor that controls my thoughts and the way I look at everything. God help me love those who try to tear me down, help me to love that person who lashes at me with anger and help me love those who need you!

I am seeking direction and grace from the one who died for my sins, let me know you and your presence O God! Forgive me for falling short of you and your call on my life! Fill Me, pour into me all of YOU!